May the Start override the End

We live in a world, where we seem to be all by ourselves. No matter how much we enclose ourselves with friends and family, we all have our deepest secrets and sorrows that we can never share. And this makes us trapped, trapped in our own lies, trapped in our denial of what we are truly feeling. I simply don't know how to react to things anymore, All these feelings of frustration are leaving me far behind others, they have become so familiar that I don't feel right leaving them, how I can step forward for a new environment? 

2016 is supposed to symbolise a new break, a new year, but so far all that is happening is jinxed. I want to break out of this cycle, and revert back to my old, happy ways. Yes, we shouldn't stick in the past, but is it wrong for me to ask for a happier time? I miss the healthier and more energetic you. But I'm sure, and I know, that you will get better soon.Please hurry!

I really wish to go back to normal life, where I only worry about CCA and academics. Please, dear God, hear my prayers and let everything fall back to its original place. I'm just a glass cover holding the mess of emotions inside of me. I really need help.