End of CTs!

Finally, the CTs are over!! So it was Physics today, the very last paper! Though it was aThursday, I had CCA as tomorrow was House Practice... So anyways, as I have 听写(Chinese for Spelling) I better start learning it! Adios! By the way, I'll post my results! And popo came yesterday, like way earlier than I reached home, which was around 2.45pm. It was a pity though that I was unable to spend much time with her because I was studying. I hope that after the exams, now I can spend much time with her. I really miss those primary school days where popo would bring jiejie and I out or the times I spent at her old house... I really love her! Oh, today is Dora's birthday!

Thank you for taking time to read this while I tune in to sleep. Goodnight, it's 10.13PM in Singapore.

Why?

Why is it that I am never that good?
Why is it that people always avoid me?
Why is it that people only talk to me when they need my help?
I have only a limited number of friends,
And even my mother asks me
Why is it that I don't interact with my cousins?
And I am always not that popular,
And I am always not that recognised,
Nor am I that talented...
So why?
Is there a reason why? Please help...

Today is just an ordinary Saturday, started the day off with tuition and even though Monday's exam is Chemistry, I plan on starting only tomorrow though I know that there is much to study for. Why does it seem so stressful now? I really missed my Sec 1 days... But I have already sat for 5 papers, leaving me with 3 more, though they are the hardest 3... So I guess I'm all geared up?

Busy day

Yucks, this week has been a hectic one for me. First we had CNY lunch for the elderly where my popo had attended it and I saw her while performing! Anyways, my Common Tests starts next week and I have yet to study for it, oh well. I have just too many homework and I'm disappointed to say that I won't be able to update this blog for 2 weeks. Sorry. And popo just brought me some pizzas!! Tomorrow is valentine's day, so happy Valentine's Fay in advanced!!

Next week's schedule

This Week schedule (on top of daily lessons)
Monday- stay back for Physics SPA 4.20-5.30PM, SS homework is due
Tuesday-CCA/ CNY Lunch Rehearsal 3.30-6.00PM, 剪报 is due
Wednesday- CNY Lunch, no complaints here!
Thursday- Remedial?
Friday- CCA till 6.30PM
Saturday- Tuition in the morning:-(

What a hectic week.

What exactly is the best method to run a state?
We've just finished learning about the Cold War and it all started because of different ideology on how to run countries. To me, isn't being completely Democratic or Communism not as good as what we want for our society? Democracy brings about a huge difference in income gap between the very rich and the really poor. Communism can be unfair, as it is not based on meritocracy. So what can be the best? I think that we need to use a bit of both such that the system is based on 'Reward for Work' yet the income gap is not that big either.

CNY

I have so much homework yet I don't feel the motivation to do them. May I say a little prayer, that I may find the energy in me?
Oh why is it that I seem to just grow stupider by day, and that slowly I'm losing touch with the world?
Why is it that some people around me are really two-faced, I'm not the victim, but it is so clear to me, yet I can't confide in anyone else?
And why is it that I always want to escape from real life, finding my own pleasures in a fantasy world of my own. But why is it so easy to sink deeper into my sins, and slowly fade away into the sweet icing dreams? Those are the dreams that bring you a false feeling of pleasure and of happiness. Could it be because my real world has shattered?
It seems like I'm rebuilding a makeshift world to cover up.