A short post

Well it's been about 3 days since I've ended my Os. I have reverted back to my lazy days, mostly just spending my days on the sofa reading and watching Harry Potter. But come to think of it, I think I will actually miss PL, having been a PL-lite for 10 years. And PL Sec was one of the best place to be in, it is a shame and of such grief that I have to leave her. I've heard stories of JC from my sister, and I realised that it is different from PL, in PL everyone cares for each other, teachers pray for your well being and friends pray for one another. But in JC, unfortunately not...

Anyways, today I went swimming with D and what a great time we've had. I wish and hope really hard that I'll always remain close friends with D.

Chinese O'Level results

Today was the very day where I received my O' Level paper which I took in June. And I have done better than I expected, before I expected an A2, for only during Prelim 1 (the last time we practiced a full paper for Chinese), I had gotten my vey first A2. But after receiving my result slip, I really wanted to jump in excitement, I had gotten an A1! And distinction for my oral! And I saw Roanne's marks, she too had exactly the same result as me, and I felt that she really worked hard for she was not in school since the beginning of the year, yet she had this good result! And Matthea, though she had a merit for oral, she was still blessed with an A1, which meant that her paper one and two were really good! She deserves it, I saw her working really hard for it! But whenever there are good things, there's bound to be some bad. My friend, E, didn't get what she wanted, and I felt really bad, because her foundation is there, I believe that she could have done it. And XY, she was such a positive girl, I hope that she will pick herself up and get an A1 for the end of year's one. And not to forget Sherylyn, please let her have the blessings and not be so disappointed.

Chinese Oral

Well, I just had my Chinese O'Level Orals last Friday, 4th July 2014. It does happen to be the day of America's Independence Day, yet I has such an important ordeal to go through. Chinese was never my forte, and I read the passage really badly. To me, I thought that it was simple, yet I'm sure I said it horribly, so I do regret it, a lot. Before the exams, there were six of us in a group and we prayed together. This was one of the few moments where I really felt that if every falls to pieces, I do know that I can always count on Him. Before the day itself, I have already been praying, not for a miracle, but for me to work hard and present all that I had gotten. Throughout the oral exam, I really felt His presence, always being with me. I'm a Buddhist, yet I felt His presence in the hall, felt His warm hands melt my icy heart. May He be with all who needs his presence. Amen.

All the best for those taking their O'Level Oral! Push on and strive towards the goal!

23rd April- Prefects' Installation
25th April- Musical Montage
And now that all of these is over, I'll never be able to play with my guzheng friends again, nor can I go home with them or just tease them, and I can't serve the Board or be with my buddies anymore. But the main thing is missing PLGZ, for which I've gotten to know everyone better!!!

Why do we have to make friends, only to leave them?

The anger of a gentle man

He speaks of calmness, of reflective,
To meditate, is what he says.
Soft spoken, with hope for the just,
He is willing to sacrifice for all.
But he has his own limits,
Regardless of whatever he do.
The little pink flower may just have bloomed,
But watch out! For it is doomed.
The sky darkens and he spits his words,
Speaking of eternity and gore.
He shadows the One back home,
And seeks his opinion.
He picks the nay flower,
And jumbles it in his pocket.
For that is the anger of a gentle man.

Today was a really heartening day. I received my E. Maths paper and out of 40, I've only received 30, which was really disappointing. My Maths teacher even asked me what happened. Then we had Physics O level SPA, of which I didn't really study that topic and I lost one mark because I didn't know what to do and I asked my teacher how to do it. I really am so envious of Janice, because she didn't lose any of her marks. What's more, I labelled my ray drawing wrongly. There goes my full marks.

End of CTs!

Finally, the CTs are over!! So it was Physics today, the very last paper! Though it was aThursday, I had CCA as tomorrow was House Practice... So anyways, as I have 听写(Chinese for Spelling) I better start learning it! Adios! By the way, I'll post my results! And popo came yesterday, like way earlier than I reached home, which was around 2.45pm. It was a pity though that I was unable to spend much time with her because I was studying. I hope that after the exams, now I can spend much time with her. I really miss those primary school days where popo would bring jiejie and I out or the times I spent at her old house... I really love her! Oh, today is Dora's birthday!

Thank you for taking time to read this while I tune in to sleep. Goodnight, it's 10.13PM in Singapore.

Why?

Why is it that I am never that good?
Why is it that people always avoid me?
Why is it that people only talk to me when they need my help?
I have only a limited number of friends,
And even my mother asks me
Why is it that I don't interact with my cousins?
And I am always not that popular,
And I am always not that recognised,
Nor am I that talented...
So why?
Is there a reason why? Please help...

Today is just an ordinary Saturday, started the day off with tuition and even though Monday's exam is Chemistry, I plan on starting only tomorrow though I know that there is much to study for. Why does it seem so stressful now? I really missed my Sec 1 days... But I have already sat for 5 papers, leaving me with 3 more, though they are the hardest 3... So I guess I'm all geared up?

Busy day

Yucks, this week has been a hectic one for me. First we had CNY lunch for the elderly where my popo had attended it and I saw her while performing! Anyways, my Common Tests starts next week and I have yet to study for it, oh well. I have just too many homework and I'm disappointed to say that I won't be able to update this blog for 2 weeks. Sorry. And popo just brought me some pizzas!! Tomorrow is valentine's day, so happy Valentine's Fay in advanced!!

Next week's schedule

This Week schedule (on top of daily lessons)
Monday- stay back for Physics SPA 4.20-5.30PM, SS homework is due
Tuesday-CCA/ CNY Lunch Rehearsal 3.30-6.00PM, 剪报 is due
Wednesday- CNY Lunch, no complaints here!
Thursday- Remedial?
Friday- CCA till 6.30PM
Saturday- Tuition in the morning:-(

What a hectic week.

What exactly is the best method to run a state?
We've just finished learning about the Cold War and it all started because of different ideology on how to run countries. To me, isn't being completely Democratic or Communism not as good as what we want for our society? Democracy brings about a huge difference in income gap between the very rich and the really poor. Communism can be unfair, as it is not based on meritocracy. So what can be the best? I think that we need to use a bit of both such that the system is based on 'Reward for Work' yet the income gap is not that big either.

CNY

I have so much homework yet I don't feel the motivation to do them. May I say a little prayer, that I may find the energy in me?
Oh why is it that I seem to just grow stupider by day, and that slowly I'm losing touch with the world?
Why is it that some people around me are really two-faced, I'm not the victim, but it is so clear to me, yet I can't confide in anyone else?
And why is it that I always want to escape from real life, finding my own pleasures in a fantasy world of my own. But why is it so easy to sink deeper into my sins, and slowly fade away into the sweet icing dreams? Those are the dreams that bring you a false feeling of pleasure and of happiness. Could it be because my real world has shattered?
It seems like I'm rebuilding a makeshift world to cover up.

EXCO'14, a shoutout to you

Just thought of something:
To the PB EXCO'14:
I wish to be as wise as Johanna
To be as funny as Esther
To be as kind as Joanne
To be as friendly as Seow Chien
To be as smart as Gloria
To be as sweet as Shui Han
and to be as creative as Natasha

Destiny

Destiny:
Our lives are actually controlled by fate and the stars, yet we think that we are the masters of our own destiny, that's because we think that we are controlling our lives and making our own choices, but the truth is, the choices that we make are actually meant to be for us. So, in the bigger picture, we are just merely puppets in the hands of Fate.

It's 2014, I'm Secondary 4, oops it's kind of the 4th of January. Guess I'm not that committed to this blog. So I'm really enjoyed 2013 and my resolution for this new year? The O' Levels and that I may be a better leader as well as a better person. Okay, I'm lazy so I guess I'll stop here...
P.S IF I had twitter, I think I will want my account to be either @jessicalee or @violetvices. Not that I have twitter...